Dum Spiro Spero
I started this project on Hitrecord just over a month ago but it’s something I’ve been building towards most of my life. I am writing a book and making a documentary about fatherless fathers, using my own irregular history as a sort of case study. My mother was adopted and had me when she was little more than a child herself. In-fact my eldest daughter is now only a few years shy of how old my mother was when she had me. My mother left me to be raised by my grandmother when I was barely a year old. By the time I turned two my mother married a Moroccan man, but it was a sham marriage in order for him to get a British passport. He wanted to stay married and take on the responsibility of fatherhood, but my mother felt otherwise, and they went through a quick but bitter divorce. Despite the divorce, despite the fact he had no reason to, he decided to stay in my life and became the only father I ever knew. He would visit me in Ireland and the few times I ever visited my mother in Lo